Well, my paranoia is kicking. I spoke too broadly of police, I
have interacted with many and they do a lot of good. A bad apple
spoils the whatever and their code of silence allows for that sort
of rot. I tell it straight, because they monitor the list. I
pissed them off! Do you think it passed the sanity test that cops
run all street drugs with their felon database in hand? Damn! All
those Fellas are going to turn and bite their masters' hand, you
watch! Stacking these grown men like Twinkies in overcrowded
prisons. There is a debt that needs to be paid and the righteous
are those in prison on a bunch of bullshit paper. Vive la
revolucion! Ok, sorry I went political. I am done.
On 12/17/2016 9:49 PM, Robert Withers
wrote:
I am sad with you in your diagnosis. I get that too, the blues.
I get high if I am holding and listen to "Kind of Blue" or deep
house or reggae. Some X would be good, but herbage is my
mainstay to drop my constant threat mode (hypervigilence). I do
not want a repeat of what happened! Unfortunately I drive people
away to make sure of that. I appreciate your alls kindness. I
wanted to share a solid explanation of why I am such a dick at
times. I flip to active threat mode, I struggle to control this.
It doesn't help that the police have been stalking me for 2
years, I am all caught up in their noise. Don't believe a word
of their truthfulness. The blue wall of silence breaks God's
commandment thou shalt not bear false witness. Police violate
that daily, protecting their brothers who shoot unarmed black
men in the back and claim they are fearing for their lives.
Really? No, really? Well, that is a different story. That just
freaking triggers me. And my opinion makes me their target. At
least in my C-PTSD befuddled mind.
Be well all!
On 12/17/2016 2:27 PM, Dimitris
Chloupis wrote:
What rage ? I have not noticed anything, in any
case I wish you the best :)
I am also suffering from "dysthymia" which is actually
the opposite of what you have
still is no fun and its very difficult to explain to
others but I see a psychiatrist for over a year now and I
have seen a lot of improvement.
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